If you’re having suicidal thoughts, it will not last forever. You didn’t always feel this way, and while you might feel this way all the time now, this too shall pass. It’s important to remember this.
When I became suicidal, it followed a mental breakdown, and I felt that I had once been one way and was now quite another. Something had broken in me and would be gone forever. There was no going back. The new reality was a terrible one I couldn’t stand, and with me assuming the past version of me was dead and gone, I wanted to be dead and gone with it.
I’m fortunate to not have killed myself that day, or in the five suicidal years after. I’ve done a lot of great things and had good times, with more on the way. I’ve also had some bad ones, but life is never perfect, nor should we expect it to be.
The point is that recovery is possible. People do it all the time. This is not a before-and-after thing. There’s a part three, the part where you get on with your life. The part where you’re glad you’re alive, that you didn’t do it, that you have a better story to tell than one that ended that way. That’s what you deserve, and if you don’t think so now, just hang in there, because you will one day. I’ll do what I can to give you ideas on how to get there.
In May of 2015, public shaming led a girl to kill herself. Or so it seems. To sum this up, the 13-year-old girl’s father cut her beautiful long hair off as punishment and videotaped her tearful reaction. Someone else got the video and uploaded it to YouTube. Izabel Laxamana then killed herself by jumping from […]
In the spring of 2014, a 16 year old girl named Maddie Yates committed suicide after posting a YouTube video in which she stated that she’d be doing the world a favor by killing herself. I can’t disagree more. I don’t know the first thing about Maddie, but I know this dark thought. I used […]
If you’ve ever thought, “If I kill myself, they’ll be sorry,” you’re not alone. Teenagers are especially prone to this sort of thinking. It doesn’t mean that you’re really suicidal. So then why think it? It has a mollifying effect, meaning it makes us feel better. Maybe we’re feeling uncared for, so we tell ourselves […]
If you’re prone to suicidal thoughts, you’ve probably noticed that they come and go, often with depression. During one of those times when you’re feeling better, do yourself a favor – remove easy means of killing yourself from the places where you live or otherwise spend time. That way, when the darkness comes upon you […]
If you’re having suicidal thoughts, it will not last forever. You didn’t always feel this way, and while you might feel this way all the time now, this too shall pass. It’s important to remember this. When I became suicidal, it followed a mental breakdown, and I felt that I had once been one way […]
Due to speech problems, I was isolated and often depressed as a teen, but my suicidal ideation turned serious at 18, when someone betrayed me to play a joke at my expense in front of others who’d gathered to watch me be humiliated. This caused a mental breakdown (or nervous breakdown), made me believe in God […]